Busy

I have been so busy, and also feel I don't need a blog, and I have been uninspired and wondering about so many things. But good has come of it!

1. Over Tom, so always good, I was way too hung up over him.
2. Going to get my hair cut how I want it.
3. I feel happy now.

And O-M-Gee! I'm going to a gig next week with my gig buddy, I have been to only one gig without him. We always have so much fun. XD Last time I went to a gig with him my dad said he hadn't seen me so happy in a long time, but that was because Tom was being a dick and just never around, like he was always busy and had no time for me. But I give up on that now. I am never getting like that again. I'm young and will live how I want: too loud, neon and a glitter and sequin hear. <3

So basically just haven't updated but not much has been going down that's been interesting; did a volunteer mentor thing that helped train dogs so they coudl get rehomed, did mocks, and danced in my head.


Pieces of love , glitter kisses
xoxox

Woof!

Mwah
It's bloomin' chilly, and I have a blanket on my head. Gotta love England-or not. Yeah I love it. It's got an awsome flag ^^. If you have time look up Finnish Laphound, they are sooo cute or Finnish Spitz. I googled Finnish to explain something, like the paleness of Scandanavians is an adaptation as they have less sunslight and pale skin absorbs more vitamin d, blahblah so googled it and these cute doggies came up!

I love dogs. In total I have had 2. The first one was Roxy, and she was something... I really, really love her. We got her when I was 12 or 13, and she was so cute, and fluffy. She was playful but cheeky, used to nip so she could get a walk, which did hurt she was a german shepherd. And she was soo beautiful. Then she got epilepsy and it ended up killing her, but she survived over christmas and I'm so thankful for that, otherwise it would never be the same. She was only a year and a half, which feels weird thinking Tyson the dog we have now, another german shepherd is 3. He is totally different! Where as Roxy was gentle Tyson is rough and I guess if he was human "heavy handed" he doesn't sit he flops! I love him too. The moments I love the most are when he's so calm and he just sits with you, or sometimes with his head on you, once had him lying on me. <3

But yeah, that animal love  AND  respect<3

Misconceptions A Glory Lot

Howdy peoples.

Not a lot going on-hey that's a lie! I have physics and biology coursework, o-yippers... ¬ ¬
It's soo much work, and I just finished my history essay tonight, but I still have one left that is one I have to redo, even I admit 2/24 is shite.

It's funny though, I wore red lipstick yesterday, yeah I like love makeup. I wear it because I like putting it on and to me it's a type of art. Just non-permament and visual and utterly personal. But I was also wearing it to test out my new colour-keeping-lasting-thing, I don't know it's name, but it keeps lipstick's colour for longer and makes your lips shiny. So wore that and red lipstick, admittedly my mum went that's brigt "hooker red" <-sounds like what I say. But me and my mum always joke about, and hooker red is what I call fire-truck red and other bright reds-just a me thing.

But at school I got asked if I was on the pull because I was wearing it. Like wtf? I LOVE makeup and they used to be a close friend but they don't know me as well as they think they do. Hell they insult me now, trying to be funny but it's just plain sad. But like o-m-gee as if? They even ask why I wear it, but not someone else who wore purple lipstick and is a friend, like at least mine is what um....I don't know NOT purple. Urggghhhh!!!

Today-mmmm powercut and phones are useful for eating, when there's no light! Plus someone said they'd got something to tell me and it's like gggrrr! Damn curiousity killed the kitty! Miow


Glitter Kisses

xoxoxox

A Royal Summing Up

This is more than likely going to be looong, very long!!! It's what happens when you don't get online, well have time to write. It's been hectic this week. So yeah, here I go, boring strangers to death! =)

Saturday, went to the cinema with my friend Scarlett aka. The Sadist in my motley libary crew, shall explain:basically a group of us who hang out in the libary ar school, and don't be mistaken we are NOT quiete, that's a big mistake. But yeah, my mum drove me to the bus stop, so we wait together. The bus drives past us, not even slowing down, we even run after it, and then comes the "oh shit, I have to tell my mum I can't even catch a bus" but she drove us there after giving the advice "stick your hand out" but I never knew. It's not something you know, but are taught, and I guess we learnt the hard way.

Anyway the film we went to see was Black Swan, I had been excited for a couple months, and O-M-Gee! It's amazing, dark, twisted and mildly disturbing but maybe one of my favourite films. It's stunning, the imagery in it, the claustrophobic filming, and the gripping story, a perfect film. I love it so much. Plus it has given a new I don't know what to call it, but I guess inside joke. In the film this man asks the dancer for homework to touch herself, and so now at school, when you go "have you done your homework?" it's giggle time.

Sunday, I'm not sure what happened overly, but parents were arguing and it's awful when they do, I hate it.

Monday youthclub!!! It's fun helping out, but the shame is due to government cutbacks it may have to close! =(

Tuesday-Parent's Evening! Dun-dun-dun.........

So far as to say I'm not dead, so obviously it wasn't too  bad. It went okay, funny thing is my parents arrived separetely but because they had to pretend they were getting on, they ended up talking and are now okay. At least it was good for something then. I take chemistry, physics, biology and history for A-level, hence shorter parent's evening than other years, but still took a while.Turns out I'm doing okay. Though it seems every single teacher thought I was going to fail in the first six weeks, but to be honest I was depressed and not coping well, but now here's to things looking up! History was fine, though one teacher has this thing about me being a "smart young thing" riiiiiiiiiight! Biology one teacher, Mrs Th asked if I even liked it, which made me laugh, and my parenst, and herself. Then in chemistry I got told I was getting better, woop. That's the hardest subject I think, and I hate maths and that's in physics. But in physics the teachers, as two were in that one ended up discussing with my parents and me about how my writing is like a boy, I think like a boy, I answer like a boy, and to the teachers they have even discussed how like a boy I am. So I was like I'm not a boy, I'm a physicst, and I now want a t-shirt with that on!

Wednesday-I got Vogue!!! Yay, and that made me laugh, as that day I was wearing yellow eyeshadow and it turns out it was on the catwalk and is coming in, so I was "fashion forward" shockingly. I lvoe Vogue so much, it's amazing, the photogrpahy level is stunning and it's amazingly artistic and interesting to read. I have people tell me "you can't read it" because they don't understand it's a magazine, but it also has articles, they just think it's for thick people. Hell knows why?! They don't read Vogue more than likely, just trashy reality magazines.

Today, aka Thursday, some odd things been afoot. In biology the teacher said we'd be listening to a clip from radio 4 and I don't know why, but I went yay, so she was like do you listen to it, "No, I'm just happy!" Made her laugh and everyone else.

I've been promisng a friend for a while I'd go to chemistry club and so I went today, and we were burning paper, but not really, it was a "magic mixture" that let you set fire to the ethanol in the picture, but as it had a lower flash point than the water, it burnt, but didn't damage the paper. So I got asked to demonstrate it in class, which was straight after lunch, both my chemistry teachers run this club so meh. But I did it, and it went okay. I was nervous but it went fine. So I had a good day and I'm really happy at the moment


I hope my mood lasts, but I doubt it. I'm in a bit of a quandry over whether I should see a friend I haven't seen in months. The reason being:I got tired of constantly being the one to arrange anything, and I mean that. It was always me, and it was so complicated. It was a guy by the way, and yeah. I want to be friends, but without the complications and just go back to being friends. Hopefully it will, and yeah. Probably will see him after I finish two history essays, one I have to redo, as I failed the original, with um....2/24.

Wish me luck!

Glitter Kisses

xoxoxox

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I just found out I shall no longer have ema soon. Becasue the government is full of fascits who see it as fair that people who need support should not be part of society and the working class should be left at the bottom with no chance to better themselves so things stay how they are. So not are unis more for the rich than ever but so is a life. I hate conservatives, rich knobs who can't understand life from the other side of the track. So I am screwed, definitely no slr camera. =(

'Cause you have a bay day...

Today was awful, last night was awful. Right now I feel so unmotivated and dull, like something washed out I have practically zero inspiration. I hate that, truely I do.

So last night I got in and my mum said she'd phoned the collage and the digital photography course was running and I could go to the first session free as I was unsure. Okay, sounds good right. Well it was a basics course, so you know I go along all happy with my compact camera, which is a good one, I like to think but obviously not the best. I made an effort before I went, even used sparkly eyeshadow, ha-humph (noise in my head as I'm retelling this) and yeah looked nice. Got there, ended up walking to the classroom with the tutor, didn't at that point mention when he said "What camera you got?" that I should just go home.

Outside the classroom see people, there's 7 people there, and they all have chunky bags, so already warning bells starting to ready. In the classroom everyone gets their cameras out. Fuck I'm the only one without an slr, so I feel alienated, more so that there's a girl who is younger than me on her second camera and its a slr, and her dad who is there is a middle class prick and she isn't even into, into it. Like, it's a thing more for show than use. And I have my now to me shitty compact, hell today I tried to take a photo and I was felt so deflated well and truely: this is my camera and it's this thing. I can't even do manual.

The tutor goes on about all this stuff that only applies to slr or manual cameras but only really slr so you know the "basic digital photography" course I thought I'd come to was a "only if you have an slr can you really do anything." Plus there was homework which I can't do, hearty-ha-ha. Unsure whether I'll continue, doubt it the course is £55 and I don't see where my money is being spent if I can't apply anything. I was so ughed through it all thinking just because I can't affored an slr nor can my parents I can't learn anything. I wouldn't ask my parents for one, they are really expensive like £300 or so and it's not fair on them, there's 4 of us kids, and ya-know...

Plus the tutor who strikes me as personally artistically impaired said it's a snap if you don't fiddle with settings or it's not in manual, hah and it's only a photograph if it is. So where is the art???????? Photography is an art form, and what makes a photograph is thought, composistion and ideas, as well as lighting not settings!!

So yeah massive dissapointment, nice to know my place I guess with the have-nots because I don't have an slr, gits. Fuck them, they mislabeled a course.

After ended uo in Tesco and I got a penguin toy, who is now my mascot in all matters for 24p, ka-ching, and two new scarves mum bought me one, I love her. Then she had to buy cigarettes for my dad, even though she had just give up that day. Silly man.

Then today was awful, was already blue admittedly. But hey it happens then in general studies, a lesson on society but kinda pointless this teacher was going on about technology and in one bit he went "who has laptops?", then "who doesn't?" I don't, so raised my hand slightly and he said, well laughed as he did "I almost said are you too poor to have one," I don't care if it related slightly-barely to anything, if it was a joke. It made me feel shit, he knows knothing of my life, like my dad is sick, it's on and off to the point for most of a year he couldn't work, he's self-employed too, so yeah effects your life. I'm not well-off, I'm not middle class, I'm working class. But the fact he said that at all just pisses me off, annoyed my mum and dad too, considering I ended up crying after telling them too, it's embarassing that hey I'm not rich and all that. But to have it practically shoved in your face and laughed at as if for a cheap joke, wow that's my life you're laughing at. My mum is more than likely going to make a complaint, it's insensitive to anyone really and he didn't know my background or anything.

It really got to me, so I don't have an slr camera, I don't have a laptop, so what do I have? Compared to other people not a lot, hell my phone is broken and I'm using an old one. But I don't want a laptop, and an slr camera is something I will buy for myself, except I can't as I need to save my ema for uni, as well as any money I get so that's out the window maybe. I don't know. Not sure about the course but =P.

Rant finished.

Ranty-warnt

I have written in so long as basically it's a pig to get online ever. Massive pig, my brother's are ALWAYS on the computer and school has this blocked so I have to endure their bloody-awful gunshots from their silly computer games, hell they may not be but it's annoying. Like for example slept on couch at the weekend, did it as me and my sister were arguing and so no arguements when I went up at midnight, not a good thing at that time. So I fell asleep, admittedly woke up downstairs in mostly dark alone, parents buggered off after watching another film, and I didn't wake up, I'm impressed, well I woke up to gunshots and them shouting. That's one way I hate to start a morning

Today went okay. Wore a new top and people noticed so kinda funny. It may just combine floral and utitliy, it's in utility shades, grey and black but has a floral pattern, so hah Vogue its happened. Reminds me I NEED to get the February issue. I love Vogue, the photography is outstanding, and purely art.

Am getting annoyed as have now realised I hear gunshots from a game my brother is playing and the mouse is driving me nuts, its all squiddly and sticking. =( its so unfair, I don't know how but it is. Or my brother got a netbook for school becasue he needed one, and he's 12, yet I'm 16 and I have to ask hours in advance to go on the computer to do important homework. Plus the computer normally has my 10 year old brother on it. Playing games or on habbo =P, same goes for my brother it's rarely school work but games, mostly ones he plays against my brother. AND they shout to each other even though they are next to each other. It's ridiculous, kids do not need laptops or netbooks, I never had one and I've done well, it's just a way to make kids have yet still a greater lack of information and a reliance on technology.

Sorry about the rant but it occasionly gets to me. Can't think of much else to say but peace, love and pixie dust.